so my hair is short again. (:
if u ask, why did i cut it? i need a change, and i think it's e best way to tell u that i'm prepared to forget now. wish u luck. i'll smile and look forward to my new aims and life, with my new hair heh. and yeap, goodbye.

接受，被否定的感觉。
他告诉你，我会这样说， 因为你是我的朋友。真的吗？你从来就没有认同过，凭什么否定？我跟自己说，没关系，我没事。但是眼泪，哈，停不了。也许，是有生以来，被朋友用言语批评， 否定。你，从一开始就不认同，也一直用一样的态度否认下去。你说，我认为世界是为我而运转，很重很伤人。我知道，不能信，不能听，不能受影响。我`哭了，像一个输得惨兮兮的可怜虫，真的很可怜。我想找人倾诉，脑海却空白一片。怀疑我存在的价值，怀疑我的能力，怀疑所有的可能性。我很脆。很在意。 为了求进步的改变，我会试。只是，一切就会不一样，从明天开始。我会认真。很认真尝试，改变。


没事的。

It enlightened me. Like giving me a tight tight slap, hoping that i can wake up.

i seriously don't know what do i want. I know it sounds so pathetic and ridiculous, everything just lost control. After that long period, i thought i knew what kind of relationship i would be comfortable with. i thought i've sorted it out and had my stand clearly. but why, why after those 'i thought' i become confused. i even reversed and ate all my words. what do i really want? i feel lyk crying whenever i got nothing to answer myself.

somebody said:" maybe u won't believe this, but it's all karma..."

i believed. and i feel scared. what i received were all the same things that i did. even words that i said. like a tape that is rewinding, just that the characters in the story are swapped.
"u owe something, u need to clear the debt. it's a cycle, and u deserve it. "

i don't have the courage to let go. and i don't have the confidence to fall in love again. it's a dilemma situation. i don't want to become that kind of story teller who recycle the same story, until everybody gets sick of it.

Enough.
please stop and wake up.

i hope i can find the way, that i know i have been looking for a long time,
i hope my heart can hear me and teach me how.


i love my sisters. Thank god for sending u all to me as gifts.
u know who u are ;)

i read it four times, it's meaningful :) and u make me cry lol

Time flies at a lighting speed. to most us, who're safe and sound, sitting at home, yea, this statement is just nice to describe. But to those in Japan, Mymmar and Chiang Mai who live from the disasters, they might be hoping for a rewind. They lost their home, some of them lost their family and friends, and yet they're still threatened by hunger, radiation leak or another unpredictable attack. Whenever i listened to the news update, i couldnt help but to think what can i do to help? one second after that thought, i realised i am just so useless. how i wish i can share my warm food and blanket, how i wish i can share the sense of security and blissful moments that i had w family and friends. They're all gifts from god. I feel so thankful, for every thing that i have and i'll pray, pray for all of u, who have suffered. Don't worry, they're just challenges and u'll definitely overcome them. Be strong, Japan!



people, please support Earth Hour today! 8.30-9.30, off ur light please ;D

heyheyhey don't be so fierce leh everybody :D
okays, "busy" might be an excuse for the moment because i'm having my precious little short one week break in jb :D gonna start my itp (attarchment) next week :( wellwell. not-so-awesome year 2 is finally ended. so give me a real AWESOME year 3 pleasee :) a real cool design brief and nicez+ kind lecturers :) and so, with my present results, as far as i can predict, it will be not-so-awesome too D: shyt darn wtf. haiyyy can i have a rewind :( kaykays nvm, i still feel veli excited to share with u all my "hard work" thru the year :D open ur eyes bigbig!


 - final presentation board (building plans, sections, details)


 - final model (front)

 - (back)

 - (side)

- top ( the roof garden)

people i superlove my model <3 <3 <3 it's made of balsa woods. :D
time to tidur! nights! :*


 maybe u would like to have a comparison, "the before" and "the after". this is before lolxxx