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posted : Monday, February 16, 2009

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i have a very bad feeling nw..it's lyk i'm forgetting sumthg tat always linger in my mind but nw it's fading.. i got alot to pour out when i was setting up my own blog. they were all in my mind. right there in my brain. yet, now they have broken into pieces..fine little pieces. tat makes me effort to put them bec again..i'm lazy to do so:(

well.

counting down days. about 23 days left before i can meet him again. more than half a month.:( he was so lucky. i always wondered how could he got tis sort of luck. to be picked to go for ns=.= while his other bro all escaped frm e hardship. haix. mayb tis is his fate.. as all e LEE's had gone through e same process. so as i said. he's lucky. and i'm luckier. to wait outside alone for 3 long months. i'm working while waiting. as to spend my f r e e little time in a more beneficial way. in other to fill up all e empty spaces empty time empty mind empty soul AT LEAST ther's sumthg for me to work on besides rotting. working is not a pleasant experience for me. not until nw. i don't really lyk my job. not becoz of it's a job tat needs to fold clothes, run around to serve customers, talk to explain e promotions.. it's e tense atmosphere there. i really cnt suit in their surrounding. i have friends. but they will nvr be my confidant. not for e time being. mayb i'm interpretting or thinking too much. but e way sum of them speak..it's lyk ther's another evil trap behind it. huff. totally stressed out. my routine job cn makes me really busy sumtime. it eats up my 9hours everyday. summore, nw i always grumble at my low pay. nt hapy nt hapy nt hapy. ther's sumthg else that make me lost my smile in sum way too. e problem between me n him. since v couldn't meet oftenly, or it's more understandable if i say in tis way, v hardly get even a chance to meet since he went ns. our destinies r always twisted around. lyk they would nvr encounter. he was bec but i was away. or my working shift would encounter e time he could phone me.. it made both of us troubles or sparks to quarrel.. he said. i didn treasure him enuf. i'm sad to hear tat. i did try. he was right. i said sorry halfheartedly. i still wonder wad did i do wrong? but every quarrel tat v had, it would end vy soon as v were able to bear wif each other. or when i was really angry, he would apologise in his last msg b4 he returned his hp. he would say magic words to me. my anger would vahish in seconds. e words really do work(: well. as he said. i will try to learn ba. to learn e way he wan me to treasure him.

i got a philosophy. lol. it's lyk WOA. haha. hmm. here it comes. to start a relationship is easier than to maintain it, while to maintain a relationship is easier than to end it. it goes in a procession.

isn't it? (:

anyway. i love happy ending♥

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