hi

feeling kinda pissed to be judged. haha. yes i am. 

but then i won't blame anyone. because i admit my behaviours were confusing. we can be friends. even after we broke up. to be frank, i didn't really think that, i needa restrict my action or feeling, such as keeping a distance, exude "oh u're a normal friend, a stranger now" kinda feeling, but in fact, we know each other more than ourselves. why pretend. i see pointless there. he's still someone important, he gave me the sweetest memories i ever had, we went thru up and down, yes we did. sadly it didn't work out in the end. but memories remain, and i only remember the good ones. people asked me, how did u come out from it, so fast? u never take him seriously? it wasn't love? oh please. be fair. how much do u really know? so, please don't judge. it's hurtful. i like him as a person, as a friend. but if get together, we can't get this kinda relationship. too close to each other, problems will occur and they make me breathless. i tried, it wasn't something that i could give up easily. i like it this way, we promised each other that, our future relationship matters are depending on our own will, no meddling from each party, but if fate allows again, years later, we might come into each other's life again. who knows?

i don't forget. (::